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Just a while ago.. I found myself, again, caught in a labyrinth, trying to escape the puzzle.. trying to find my way out..
I am not comfortable being with them, the both of them –faction-. I can feel the pressure. I desired for a clone, I desired for a chainsaw.. and cut myself into half. When they came to timezone.. I really did not know what to do.. I felt something that I never aspired to feel. I felt.. guilt. remorse. I was anxious. I was perplexed. Black out. It almost broke me.. into falling pearls. Moan for my confusion.
I really wanted to go home with them.. since it has become a habit.. and going home in solitude is a curse..
But I also want to go with them since it has been a while since I went out with them and I missed them too..
Balance..
So I chose to go with them. Relieved..
Still bothered of that feeling..
Why am I making this a big issue? I don’t know.. it is not that massive though.. gohd.. I just want to expunge what I felt..
So when I went home, this issue preoccupied me. I got irritated and confused.. instead of going to times, I decided to ride a jeep to zapote –knowing there’s a congestion- I got stucked. So, I walked myself all the way to zapote.. and rode a jip again heading sm Molino.. that took me about 30-40 minutes.. it blew my head off. I was so tired.. and irritated..
I am not comfortable being with them, the both of them –faction-. I can feel the pressure. I desired for a clone, I desired for a chainsaw.. and cut myself into half. When they came to timezone.. I really did not know what to do.. I felt something that I never aspired to feel. I felt.. guilt. remorse. I was anxious. I was perplexed. Black out. It almost broke me.. into falling pearls. Moan for my confusion.
I really wanted to go home with them.. since it has become a habit.. and going home in solitude is a curse..
But I also want to go with them since it has been a while since I went out with them and I missed them too..
Balance..
So I chose to go with them. Relieved..
Still bothered of that feeling..
Why am I making this a big issue? I don’t know.. it is not that massive though.. gohd.. I just want to expunge what I felt..
So when I went home, this issue preoccupied me. I got irritated and confused.. instead of going to times, I decided to ride a jeep to zapote –knowing there’s a congestion- I got stucked. So, I walked myself all the way to zapote.. and rode a jip again heading sm Molino.. that took me about 30-40 minutes.. it blew my head off. I was so tired.. and irritated..
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