annex

NUMB

2010-05-25T16:40:00.001+08:00

Right now, I don’t know what I am feeling. I know in my heart that I love what I am doing in my council. I can’t explain it. Can someone explain it to me? It’s as if I am doing things just because I need to do it. Is it because my parents are against it? Is it because I am scared of so many things for my council? I know I am having fun and I love it. But I have this numb feeling. I am feeling numb. Is it because I have sacrificed much for this council? My family, my friends, my academics. Is it worth it?

Reviving my BLOG!! "Memos"

2010-05-16T12:46:00.002+08:00

my last post was like ages ago. and here i am typing out of boredom. now i realize that blogging is healthy. just letting it out make me feel better. as i browsed my blog, i remember the days when i used to burst out of frustrations due to dilemmas and this blog was my outlet.

Difficult. I will now love my blog and update it all the time. it is quite difficult to show weakness, to show disappointments, to show negative happiness. I am the chairperson now and i should always be strong. never should my council see me in pain, see me in despair. that's why it is difficult. i have no one to consult.. but then i have my blog just to write things out. but ill make sure at the end of my every entry, i encourage myself. just like in HIMYM, i;ll write to future ralph

Avert. i should do away with it. it is not healthy. past should never be a future. we should just all learn from it. dont give chances. never indulge in charms. oh so cute. never. as i browsed my friendster, it stroke. and i browsed the pictures of that stroke. and all the memories are coming back. and i hate it. i hate it...

To future Ralph. Never repeat your mistakes. remember why you stopped. your present now is worth while. do away with it. you can never be as disappointed. too much disappointments make you strong. and that i need to be, as for the chairperson of the council, keep your passion burning above all!

what you need to buy for Ralph on his birthday

2009-03-30T18:02:00.000+08:00

pls buy me these stuff.. haha. i like it better if you'll get me theses things. ayoko nrn maxado ung mga picture picture gft na collage. dami na eh. ehehe. ung something i can use nman.

1. psp -bronze-

2. nintendo ds -black super mario edition-

3. ipod nano -black or blue-

4. lomo camera

5. nike ice cream rubber shoes - red, blue or brown and black-

6. jacket from people are people.

7. car -ferrari sana khit 2nd hand- haha

8. pair of pants from people are people or penshoppe

9. sanuk shoes/ slippers

10. crocs, pede nrn

11. naruto collection prn -pero least priority na to

12. watch - original sana, guess o bsta orig-

eto muna. i'll add in the next few days, bka tom? haha sa thurs na bday ko eh.

be guided guys. hahaha!

i got tagged!

2009-03-06T15:56:00.000+08:00

This is a chance to post, na-tag kasi, haha... Pinahirapan ako nito ah... XD

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real. . .nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name: Ralph
2. A four Letter Word: roar

3. A boy's Name: ron
4. A girl's Name: roanna
5. An occupation: riter? haha joke, uhm research analyst
6. A color: roaring red
7. Something you wear: rugged clothes?
8. A food: rilyeno
9. Something found in the bathroom: rats? haha

10. A place: rome
11. A reason for being late: running in the oval?
12. Something you shout: raaaaar!
13. A movie title: richie rich
14. Something you drink: red bull
15. A musical group: rolling stones

16. An animal: rat again
17. A street name: r. papa st. bahaha

18. A type of car: rrrrrr
19. A song title: read my lips
20. A verb: run

I'm tagging, everyone

2nd batchrun of my wishlist!

2008-11-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

hindi ko muna lalagyan ng price. hehe pic lang at description. ;)

1. Architecture Book

2. Abstract Painting Book

3. Korean Dictionary

4. Carpet

5. Microwave

6. rubbershoes (running)

7. Cardigan

8. Blanket

. New ipod nano

10. Toy Helicopter

11. Internet Connection

12. Handkerchief

13. Sandals/ Slippers (crocs)

14. Artwork Shorts

15. Bible

1st Batchrun of RAG's wishlist

2008-11-09T13:36:00.000+08:00

This is my first time to release a wishlist. Anyone can enlist in any item by commenting on it. anyone can pass a petition if he/she would like to add an item for my wishlist. hahahaha

1. HP - Pavilion Laptop with Intel® Core™2 Duo Processor T5800 - Onyx/Chrome

price: $649.00

2. PSP slim limited edition: bronze

price: 10,XXX php

3. PSP kechain

Price: unknown

4. Nintendo Lite DS (black)

price: 9,XXX php

5. EPSON Stylus C90

price: 2k-4k php

6. sunglasses/shades

price: XXXX php

7. IP68 Water Resistant Mouse,Waterproof Mouse

price: unknown

8. computer speakers (any model except CD-R king)

price: unknown

9. Laptop sleeve (model to follow)

price: 1,XXX php

10. Naruto action figures

price: unknown

11. pokemon action figures

price: depends on size and quality

12. Collared shirts (any color except black, maroon, gray)

price: depends on the brand

eto muna. wahahaahahah. hintayin ang 2nd batchrun.

my answer to guiwos survey

2008-10-28T15:42:00.000+08:00

(4 Points) My last name: Guiwo
(2 Points) Where did we meet:MaSci
(6 Points) Take a stab at my middle name:
(1 Points) Where do I study:UST
(4 Points) What am I afraid of:Cats
(2 Points) Do I smoke :yes? haha. no
(3 Points) Do I drink:oo nman
(2 Points) Do I have any siblings:yep
(3 Points) How many:2 ata. haha
(3 Points) What's one of my favorite things to do:magmake up haha
(4 Points) What's my favorite type of music:ung pangbirit. haha, pinapraktis niya kc palagi sa bahay
(4 Points) Am I shy or outgoing:outgoing!!! haha
(2 Points) Whats my favorite color:brown. gayagaya
(3 Points) Name something I hate:pusa? again
(4 Points) Name a talent I have:singing
(4 Points) What kind of sneakers do I wear:errr. malay ko ba
(4 Points) Do I have any pets:no
(2 Points) Who am I dating/liking right now:baby lebleb
(5 Points) How long have I been dating/liking them:ndi ko alam. haha
(6 Points) How tall am I:5 1"?
(5 Points) What is my worst habit:babaan ng telepono kpag tatawag ka?
(5 Points on creativeness) If I were stranded on a desert island, what would I bring:2 pc swin suit!!

MaSci is Gone

2008-10-11T05:28:00.000+08:00

Original post: MASCI'S GONE
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Yung MaSci (Manila Science High School) , ginagawa ng Araullo (Araullo High School) Annex -Ma’am Palisoc

Why?

Proofs as stated by Mrs. Palisoc.

1. Schedule was changed due to insistent demands of parents. For them (freshmen parents), 7 am is so early that they appealed to move it to 8 am.

* This is so [insert word here] …Ang standard high school ang pasok 7 so kung ang MaSci 8 na, we’re below from the standard time na di’ba? I thought MaSci supposed to be higher. =( And why are parents so demanding? Err.

2. Parents (freshmen) appealed to Mrs. Sabado [principal] to reduce the number of assignments given to students.

*This is so Araullo. Mind you ha, pumasok kayo sa Manila Science High School, isang SCIENCE HS! Kung ayaw nyo ng madaming assignments … nako! And passing the exams means that you are capable of doing/answering many assignments though some are not. THIS WILL MAKE MASCI A NON-SCIENCE HIGH SCHOOL EXCEPT FOR THE SUBJECTS. Try niyong MAGPUYAT. 8 am? Lesser assignments?

3. Parents (freshmen) appealed to unidentified Education authorities to reduce the number of subjects. Some subjects according to them are very unpractical/useless.

*WALA NA. GRABE NA.

4. The principal rarely allows students to join competitions like quiz bees, and research fair. Pero pinayagang sumali sa EB Sa Pula, Sa Puti segment.

*Where’s excellence? tsk. WINNING COMPETITIONS IS BEING MASCI. If not for these competitions, MaSci will never be MaSci.

5. A teacher accommodates two sections at a time as a result of parents appealing to change schedules.

*EXCELLENCE cannot be seen. DETERIORATION of EDUCATION is seen everywhere. GRABE AH. bakit ganito? Paano na may matutunan ang isang magaaral kung ganito? Grrrr.

**** ( to be continued )

I think MaSci should change its name now. I suggest they change it to Manila Freshmen Parent’s High School or Manila Science Kindergarten Academy. For 45 years, MaSci is so excellent and recognized as an institution providing super-quality education for high school students, MaSci is known to be very competitive … so why should we change something? Nagwowork naman di’ba? I think if there is something to be change, ito dapat yung facility at yung automatic admission.

THIS IS HAPPENING.

IMPLEMENTED NA … hindi siya PETITION. NANGYAYARI NA!

A teacher told me that her 7 am class was removed, her co-teacher was reprimanded for giving excessive assignments, she teaches two classes at a time (one hour) and one of the teacher from another department (Science ata) was prohibited from joining too much competitions.

pre enlistment

2008-10-03T19:21:00.000+08:00

Schedule
Time	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday	Saturday	Sunday
08:00 AM-09:00 AM			ES 26 WFBD		ES 26 WFBD
09:00 AM-10:00 AM	CWTS 2 -Engg MMME A		ES 26 WFBD		ES 26 WFBD
10:00 AM-10:30 AM	CWTS 2 -Engg MMME A	ES 11 THDM3 ES 1 THUV	ES 26 WFBD	ES 11 THDM3 ES 1 THUV	ES 26 WFBD
10:30 AM-11:00 AM	CWTS 2 -Engg MMME A	ES 11 THDM3 ES 1 THUV		ES 11 THDM3 ES 1 THUV
11:00 AM-12:00 PM	CWTS 2 -Engg MMME A	ES 1 THUV		ES 1 THUV
12:00 PM-01:00 PM		ES 1 THUV		ES 1 THUV
01:00 PM-02:30 PM	ES 11 THDM3		L Arch 1 WFW		L Arch 1 WFW
02:30 PM-04:00 PM	ES 11 THDM3		ES 1 WFXY1 Archaeo 2 HDS		ES 1 WFXY1 Archaeo 2 HDS
04:00 PM-05:30 PM			ES 1 WFXY1 Socio 10 WFY		ES 1 WFXY1 Socio 10 WFY

course ko daw..

2008-08-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

You scored as a Accounting/Finance/Marketing (what?!)

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Accounting, Finance, Economics, Marketing, or related majors (e.g., Computer/Management Information Systems (CIS or MIS), Entrepreneurship, International Business, Operations Management, Public Administration, Real Estate, Risk Management, Sports Management).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

94%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

88%

Visual&PerformingArts

88%

HR/BusinessManagement

75%

Mathematics/Statistics

75%

Education/Counseling

75%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

75%

Psychology/Sociology

69%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

69%

Religion/Theology

69%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

56%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

56%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

50%

English/Journalism/Comm

25%

natag na naman!

2008-07-04T20:07:00.000+08:00

i was tagged by banir

A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blog and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag eight people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.

B. These eight people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to eight other people.

1.How's your relationship with God?
-good but I think sorbrang kulang ng ministry ko..

2.Where will you go after this earthly life?
-sa heaven. ;)

3.Do you find yourself cheating on your loved one?
-ala ngaun eh. T.T hehe

4.Would you rather have your ex replace you with someone more handsome than you or uglier than you?
-kahit ano, bsta mabait. condomate ko nman xa eh. haha kaya ok na ok.

5.If you were somewhere right now, where would you be and what would you be doing?
-Korea. kakain sa korean table with a cute korean girl. *.*

6.What are the three things that you want most right now?
-laptop, psp, partner

7.Who would you want to be in a fistfight with?
-ala namn ngaun
8.If the person you like is already attached, what would you do?
-hmm. gagawin lahat, daanin sa pera. haha

9.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
-hmm... yep

10.Is being tagged fun?
-pwede na rin..

11.If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend or girlfriend, how would you react?
-babae nman best friend ko eh. haha

12.Pick a person whose name starts with the letter L and say something to or about the person.
-Laurence? taga upm xa nursing

13.What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
-c vanir. masaya ang buhay at ngdadrama. may magandang lovelyf at kalaro ko sa pagsisipa. yah! ice beam!

14.What makes you happy right now?
-the condo?

15.If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do or how would you react?
-ndi nman nga tlga ako nanonotice eh. haha ala akong gagawin

16.What song are you listening to right now? Give the lines that are most applicable to you.
-ala eh

17.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
-ung mas maganda haha

18.What type of friends do you like?
-mabait, un lang

19.What do you need most in your life?
-God

20.If you played a prank on someone and fell for the trick, what will you do?

-magagalit

ala akong itatag. katamad!

IF YOU ARE A MASCIAN..

2008-06-06T16:34:00.000+08:00

If you are a Mascian, feel free to answer. Got this also from a Mascian's multply.

taga masci ka ba?
student/alumni
:: yep. alumnus

student number?
:: uhh ala namng ganun dun eh, bka nsa files. haha

do you really like it there?
:: uu nman, pero nung una ayoko, kapagod eh

is this your first choice of campus?
:: ahh, hindi

why or why not?
:: dun dpat ako sa elem school ko, may scholarship ako dun! eh pumasa ako ng MaSci, edi dun nlng.

colleges/universities?
::U.P.

dumadalaw ka pa ba sa masci or dadalaw ka pa ba khit grad ka na?
:: oo nman, palagi, may choir ako dun eh. dati. hehe

The best things about masci?
:: activities, conservative culture, mga tao, away ng student-teacher, hingian ng papel, sagot, clue, ballpen, pagkain, uniform? haha, medyas, pati sapatos, pagpapalit ng pe uniform sa cr or classrooms. lahat!

what do you miss or youre going to miss?
:: lahat.. tao, teachers, janitors, lahat ng ate, lahat ng nangyare, pagbabaguio. haha

fave place mo dito? bakit yun?
:: ahhh, ala? ewan. quad? kc ibig sabhin free tym un

fave day mo?
:: friday, half day at gala

least fave day? why?
:: monday? or wednesday, exam kc

fave building?
:: bordner, malaki classrooms

least fave building? why?
:: comp sci, ang baho dun

memorize mo ba yung masci hymn?
:: yep

paborito mong teacher/s?
:: mrs. jarabese

bakit siya/sila?
:: mabait?

pinaka-ayaw mong prof?
:: ung teacher ko sa comp sci (maam aniban!)

bakit siya?
:: parati dw ako ala sa klase, tpos bumagsak pa ung half ng batch sa kanya? waaat?!

things youve learned here?
:: ewan.. hehe. mging mabait?

naglalakad ka ba lagi papuntang school?
:: nde, bus, jip, fx. lahat na

madalas ka ba sa lib pag vacant mo?
:: nde, yoko dun, kinonfiscate celfone ko kc ngtext ako

anong masasabi mo sa madalas na pag-ra rally dito?
::eh

if you werent in masci, nasaan ka?
:: bahay?

sa tingin mo malaki ang naitulong/maitutulong ng MASCI sayo?
:: sobra! haha

my schedule

2008-06-04T17:04:00.000+08:00

GERONIMO, RALPH ANTHONY UNTALAN 200700407 Bachelor of Science in Industrial Engineering

1st Semester 2008-2009

Total units : 19.0

Note : Those in grey are subjects in conflict

Time	Monday	Tuesday	Wednesday	Thursday	Friday	Saturday	Sunday
08:00 AM - 08:30 AM				Physics 72.1 HBC1
08:30 AM - 09:00 AM			ChE 2 WFR	Physics 72.1 HBC1	ChE 2 WFR
09:00 AM - 10:00 AM	CWTS 1 -Engg MMME A		ChE 2 WFR	Physics 72.1 HBC1	ChE 2 WFR
10:00 AM - 11:15 AM	CWTS 1 -Engg MMME A	Math 54 TWHFU	Math 54 TWHFU	Math 54 TWHFU	Math 54 TWHFU
11:15 AM - 11:30 AM	CWTS 1 -Engg MMME A
11:30 AM - 12:00 PM	CWTS 1 -Engg MMME A	Math 54 TWHFV4	Math 54 TWHFV4	Math 54 TWHFV4	Math 54 TWHFV4
12:00 PM - 12:45 PM		Math 54 TWHFV4	Math 54 TWHFV4	Math 54 TWHFV4	Math 54 TWHFV4
12:45 PM - 01:30 PM
01:30 PM - 02:30 PM		Physics 72 TWHFW	Physics 72 TWHFW	Physics 72 TWHFW	Physics 72 TWHFW
02:30 PM - 04:00 PM			Theater 11 WFX		Theater 11 WFX

my schedule

UP Engineering enrollment.. (sigh)

2008-06-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

June 3,2008, tuesday, according to crs is the regular registration for undergraduates. and this.. is the start of a whole lot of walking, waiting, running, lining up and sweat-filled situations! i woke up around 5:00 am and went to U.P. i arrived there exactly 7:15 am just to see that a pile of people lined up for the opening of our department. in front of me was almost 30 people all hoping to see the doors of our department open. after almost an hour of waiting, industrial engineering opened around 8 am and we handed our ids to a regcom girl. i got my form 5 30 minutes after. haha, that was a long wait considering that they only have to hand us our form 5s. i was actually lost, haha, i didn't know what to do after. buti na lang nadun si paolo who knows the enrollment process. hehe, so he helped me. kasama ko syang ngenroll. i looked at my form 5 to find out that i only have 4 subjects enlisted. (whaaat?!) physics 72, 72.1, theater 11, and Chem engg 2. paolo told me that i need to line up again for math 54, es1. i told him to wait there, i got my form 5 first. i went to MMME department to prerog cwts- rapelling. wow! they have numbers, i got 89 and guess what?? the department is still closed and heaps of people are piling up. so i went out of melchor hall to go to math building ( i forgot about paolo. haha). so i called him then i convinced him that we get a cab and ill shoulder all expenses just to be early for math prerog. so he agreed and donated 10 php. hehe. ok na un, sabi ko nga ako mgbabayad eh pero mayaman xa. haha taga dlsu dati e.

we ran to 3rd floor of math building. woah! the line for math 54 is soo long, it even went into rooms. i lined up, waited for an hour, had some chit chats with azelle and geiselle (math 55 na kc c paolo) oo nga pla, when i arrived there, prerog was not yet opened, we had to wait. around 10 45 am, i got my math 54! woohoo! i hope my prof would not be de paz.. huhu. i saw her name in my enlistment for math. hope she is just a dummy prof. i arrived at engg building around 10 45 at natapos rn si paolo so we went to engg 309 to get our form 5 and filled it out.

at the engg canteen( i dont know the name) we filled out our form 5a. before that, i went to mmme department but the number 40 plang cla so we went to the canteen to kill time by filling out our forms. yeah! we are industrial engineers, we are masters of time menagement, managing systems! haha. how pitiful, we never had ie subjects except ie10, all are from our innate skills. we again went back to mmme after filling up our form 5. the heck, they are in number 49. we decided to again, manage time! we went to the library for clearance. haha. and again, there was a line, good thing that it only took us 15 minutes to get our clearance.

picture of line in the library

again, i went to mmme, paolo went to ie to have his slots validated and assessed. i waited ther until 11:20. line line. lots of student, line line.
and there, i got my cwts exactly 11 30 am! good thing that i was able to get it before the department' s lunch break. i ran towards our department which is 2 rooms away from mmme. hehe. saw paolo there, he told me that i have to return t the department fter lunch after pasing my form, i handed my form 5 and 5a to ie and have it validated and assessed. i left paolo there and went to katips to take a bath! i was so damn bathing in sweat. afterwhch, i went to the gym to see other mascians. woah!! they were all waiting for pe to open from lunch break. about 200 student were waiting in line only to find out after 2 hours that pe wont open slots. haha. students while announcing that there were no more slots for pe

thea, ashley, carlo, jay mark, lou, abi, larra, janica, lori all went out of the gym without a pe class enlisted. haha! joke. damn, hours of waitign for nothing. i went back to ie department, 2 pm, to get my form 5. they told me to fill out my bracket b certification with parents's signature, so i was not able to pay since i still dont have the certification signed. i went to econ to see thea and mykel. haha. they were in line, wiating for an opening for econ 100.1. haha. after 2 hours, they decided to go since it was hopeless, the line was long, and too many people are getting the slots so they assumed that they wont get the subject, intstead, they'll just go to monsod early morning tomorrow for prerog. i killed time by playing thea's psp. haha. and i went home with katz. what a day!

come day 2 june 4, 2008

i had some troubles with my stfap. haha. bsta. yoko sabihin. it is a family matter. so went to up around 1 pm. before that i went to trinoma to have my hair trimmed pero inischedule ko nlng tomorrow 3 pm. so i went to up right after buying school supplies in national. 1 pm, i went to ie dept, they told me to go to hq 309, wala dw clang pake sa problema ko. haha. buti nandun si miko at karen, they told me that ok lang yan, magbracket b ka nlng, bracket b rn kami, di nman dw kc siguro ichecheck. so un, i paid my tuition and yes! im enrolled. 16 units. i still have to get es1 by admat. i went back to engg, and got my ad mat form. waaaa! when i went to es dept, they told me that a new section was opened and all the slots were taken. x.x it took only 30 minutes to have the section fully booked. x.x so now, i dont have es1, my last hope is teacher's prerog which has 10% success rate. -sigh- now, i am finding a ge subject to compensate with my es1. and yes, i am not finished with my enrollment! i have to go back to up tomorrow for an ge-ssp. i am looking forward to a successful prerog tom.

go up enrollment!

dont pm me

2008-06-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

i dream big!

2008-06-01T19:41:00.002+08:00

first, i have to finish college then i'll take masters and then, haha maybe i would take archi subjects, or should i shift now? nah! i dont want to shift. it will take lots of my energy before i can shift. then i will find a nice job, a company that is international. i want to do good in that company and transfer to korea make myself a director there. but first, i have to find a korean wife. i love koreans. well, im not being a trator to my nation but i just love korea, i want to live there, i think it's fun. snow, nice scenery and good people. i love its culture. i want to go to korea, and have a filo-korean family. that would be really nice. i will study kung fu too! haha. got inspired from Forbidden Kingdom. i want to live a happy life. and surely, i won't forget to bring my Christianity to my family

got it from someone. true

2008-05-20T18:18:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

NEXT: getting to mushy. haha

You are the type to fall quickly and passionately in love, but will commit to a person forever when this happens. When you choose to love someone, it's going to be a strong relationship and nothing will come between you and your lover. But beware: love can turn you blind, and the rest of the world might cease to exist while you are in that honeymoon phase. When you come down from your high, you may find you have neglected other people and things that you love.

You value your friendships: 45%

You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others. You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends. You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too

MORE!

What others see from your style

Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are outgoing, energetic and trendy.

What others see from your belts

You are a lonely and demanding person. You are hardworking as well as intelligent, and can be passionate when in love.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably an independent and strong-willed person. Fairness is important to you, and you always stand up for what you believe in. You are friendly and get along well with people.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.

Ring finger
You are sensitive, romantic, and hope fervently to find a love that's heartwarming and everlasting.

ok na to. haha dami

the story goes

2008-05-15T12:47:00.000+08:00

and it ends. after the war. the contract got caught in fire. it burned. nahulog kc nung soldier eh. haha. clumsy ung soldier. aun. the war ended. the soldier packed his things and went to the mountains. he became a monk. :)

he passed away, nahulog siya sa isang bangin sa mountain. hehe :)

thank God!

2008-05-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

i thank God that He gave me self-control

i thank God that He mends my soul

i thank God that He reminds me of His promises

i thank God that He lessens my pain

i thank God that He loves me so much

i thank God for giving me hope, that i can look forward to something better for me.

I love GOd

eto mas bago. haha

2008-05-01T05:41:00.000+08:00

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2008-04-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

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from stefen

2008-04-27T18:51:00.000+08:00

Gayahin ko c stefen, ung nkaunderline ung totoo sa akin.

Welcome Ralph Geronimo, here is your handwriting analysis.

Ralph is moderately outgoing. His emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, he can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. He has the ability to put himself into the other person's shoes.

Ralph will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes he will be happy, the next day he might be sad. He has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because he is in between. Psychology calls Ralph an ambivert. He understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, he will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." He doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing him to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to him. He puts himself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet he will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Ralph is an expressive person. He outwardly shows his emotions. He may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Ralph is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. He weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when he finally has to. He basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Ralph doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

When Ralph expresses an opinion on a issue he will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change his mind. In other words... Ralph is stubborn. When he is wrong about something that he has decided upon, he will have trouble admitting he is wrong. Changing Ralph's mind can be very difficult. Once Ralph makes up his mind, he doesn't want to be confused with the facts!

Ralph will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

Ralph has a desire for attention. People around Ralph will notice this need. He may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on his own character.

Ralph can be defiant. He sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way he is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which he thinks are infringing upon his freedom of action.

In reference to Ralph's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Ralph slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Ralph can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Ralph is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Ralph basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.

Ralph is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Ralph has a temper. He uses this as a defense mechanism when he doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around him.

Ralph is constantly disappointed when trying to reach success. He works very hard, perhaps harder than most, then just before succeeding, something happens that keeps him from success. Often, Ralph changes to a second project just before the first one is finished, thus failing to complete the first project. Sometimes he changes because he feels he needs a different challenge. Ralph feels dejected. This feeling relates to his failures. This trait is very important in a working situation and in a relationship. He must be handled in a very special way to get the most work from him or to make a relationship last. Concerning this trait, personality modification is available to change his life.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Ralph has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Ralph fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Ralph has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Ralph seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Ralph seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

tag tag dw!

2008-04-27T08:04:00.000+08:00

Here are the Rules:
1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog, send them the link.

Ten Random Stuffs about Me

1. I subconsciously look at the mirror beside my pc and make faces. haha

2. I don't eat crustaceans. I'm allergic to it. haha

3. I am conscious of my surroundings when I am sleeping. I can't sleep with the lights turned on.

4. i NEED TEN HOURS OF SLEEP EVERYDAY.

5. I am a good painter, aand i rip other painting off. haha

6. I am addicted to choral singing.

7. The reason I go to events is because of the food.

8. I like telling others that i am already near but in fact, I am heaps of miles away. haha

9. I am a frustrated drumer.

10. I live for Him.- parang c camdae. hehe

I’M TAGGING:

Aia
arvi
celiz
elvin
donna
ej
karl
leslie
maki
matthew

waw

2008-04-05T20:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Hazelle,
I don't really know how to tell you this, but our romance is over. I think I realized it When I tripped on sesame seeds in your camping car and I saw you ignore my father.

I'm sure you're scared enough to understand that there is no solution to this.

I'm returning your ring to you, but I'll keep your mother as a memory.
You should also know that I was interviewed by the Times about our friendship.

In pain,
Ralph

***

alang sense nman to

***

Do it like this:
Dear (the person who last texted/smsed you).
I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___.

I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___.

I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory.
You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm inlove with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Annat; With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs; Man
O.C.; Emotional
One Tree Hill; Open
Heroes; Frostbitten
Lost; High
House; Scarred
Simpsons; Cowardly
The news; Mongolic
Idol; Masochistic
Family Guy; Senile
Top Model; Middle-class
Annat; Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

second best

2008-02-29T15:06:00.000+08:00

dont even think that i am second best.. maybe third fourth or merely nothing to her.. well, a friend maybe.. i hoped for something.. i looked forward on seeing myself with her, walking, holding hand and just looking at each other, secured of each other. well.. la na un.. kala ko pa nman.. haaay.. buti nlng natigil to ng mas maaga.. ms cao.. hehe alexandra.. lex, salamat dhil pinatigil mo na to ng mas maaga.. mas ok na toh kesa hoping for something that is in reality is a fogment.. i almost got to the point that i went crazy for her.. but good thing that did not happen. all i know was that i was always looking forward to seeing her pretty face on tuesdays and fridays in our chem lec and lab. she was always beside me.. i liked it that way.. i felt secured.. my soul felt bliss.. i was like floating.. we would always walk together.. the simple times we had with each other, i considered them one of my best times in u.p. just seeing her pics in my fone.. in her friendster account, makes my day, makes me smile.. she is so simple..she is so sweet.. she is beyond beautiful.. i always want to see her.. i desire to be with her.. i want to know her more.. i want to be with her more often.. i want her.. i like her.. alexandra cao.. alex.. the man she is waiting for is so lucky.. i pray that her wishes will come true.. i hope she will be happy.. too early.. it was too early.. taht is a good thing for i dont have to indulge on my depression due to my deep "love" for her as time passes by. it is so good that it never got deeper.. it will make me crazy if that would have happened.. for if that time comes.. that i my love has grown deeper and she just dumps my permission.. that will make me a picture of my past.. a boy who gave it all.. but did not have anything left for himseld.. for he is just second best.. for he is not good enough.. unfair as it is.. it is better off this way.. il stop it as early as now..

weigh and balance

2007-05-21T20:30:00.000+08:00

-justice-

Just a while ago.. I found myself, again, caught in a labyrinth, trying to escape the puzzle.. trying to find my way out..

I am not comfortable being with them, the both of them –faction-. I can feel the pressure. I desired for a clone, I desired for a chainsaw.. and cut myself into half. When they came to timezone.. I really did not know what to do.. I felt something that I never aspired to feel. I felt.. guilt. remorse. I was anxious. I was perplexed. Black out. It almost broke me.. into falling pearls. Moan for my confusion.

I really wanted to go home with them.. since it has become a habit.. and going home in solitude is a curse..

But I also want to go with them since it has been a while since I went out with them and I missed them too..

Balance..

So I chose to go with them. Relieved..

Still bothered of that feeling..

Why am I making this a big issue? I don’t know.. it is not that massive though.. gohd.. I just want to expunge what I felt..

So when I went home, this issue preoccupied me. I got irritated and confused.. instead of going to times, I decided to ride a jeep to zapote –knowing there’s a congestion- I got stucked. So, I walked myself all the way to zapote.. and rode a jip again heading sm Molino.. that took me about 30-40 minutes.. it blew my head off. I was so tired.. and irritated..

+positive+

2007-05-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

Scoundrel –my mouth-

It has been a while since those words came out of my mouth. I haven’t used it for like ages.. hmm.. not really, for only about 3 months –I guess-.

“tangina”

That was the word. I went to masci today expecting a rehearsal to take place but unfortunately, we were just asked to sing in the meeting of the parents and students about the Brigada Eskwela. We also joined the dreadful parade. We circled the roads surrounding masci. It was so shameful.. we were at the front of the line since they said that we are graduates, and we need utmost exposure (??).

That was actually tiring. After singing, we decided (the choir) with maam carlos to go to MOA. Wow. This is the first time i am going to MOA with the choir. We ate at Pillo loco. The food was edible. That’s all I can say. Then after eating, we had some chit chats then decided to go skating. Sadly, mrs. Carlos can’t go with us since she is afraid that she might just injure herself. Hmm.. she sat at the benches and watched us glide on ice! She was actually with pau xu and iric ( I don’t know why they did i not go skating with us). I had fun on ice! –as what the coupon says- hehe.

I tumbled three times. It did not hurt that much since I tried to stand up immediately. i even toppled and scratched my elbow on the ice. Hmm, weird, it did not hurt that much too. So why did all of these misfortunes occurred? Well, it was because of ph, and 20% because of jay v and celiz. It was so abrupt. I just found myself playing tag with them. I was aiming for ph since I know that I can tag him easier than jay v. that was the time I said “tangina ka ph” haha *smiles*. I got that scratch while he was catching me as I was entering the rink.. I was running –hastily- and since it was only my 4th time to skate, having deficient skills on skating, I stumbled and got that scratch. There.. haha. And that was also the first time –for 3 months- I uttered that word.

After that we went to quatum. The usual leisure, maniax, karaoke and revo.. the suddenly.. danikko called. I told them to go to timezone. Hmm. So they went to timezone. I was a bit.. appalled… uhhmm.. Fussed? Worried? Agitated? i think... we also played maniax. Unfortunately, choir needs to leave. So I waved farewell to them, told celiz and ph that i can't go with them, and went with kamil and danikko. We just ate at jollibee. Haha. Laughed and laughed.

I had a blast today.. hmm.. upbeat. Downbeat. -_-‘ x_x

....x_x

2007-05-19T09:43:00.000+08:00

hmm.. it is really odd. i am not expecting anything.. it is just odd. nkakalungkot. hmm.. waaa.. bkt b?? cguro kc, ndi ko maramdaman na ganun ako. though i have always been the type of friend i ought to be.

thought that he would tell me everything. i thought.. i just thought. hmm feeling tlga ako. haha. nevermind.

go upd!!!

upd!!

2007-05-19T09:18:00.000+08:00

Cheer up!

1 week has transpired and I haven’t posted my orientation experience.

-Taglish mode-

Hmm.. I was a bit excited for that day. I have always been looking forward to our orientation. Sabi kasi ni ate jobel na masaya un kaya umattend kami. So there, I attended our orientation las may 11. that was a Friday. I thought I was late, actually, I was late. 15 minutes late, but no woorries, the show have not started yet. Michaelle texted me a day ago to meet her at the econ building so we can go to the orientation together. 11 am was the meeting time, and as usual, being the tardy Filipino that I am, I came around 12 pm. Pinoy nga dw talaga ako sabi ni mykel.. hehe

I was 30 meters away from the building when a girl suddenly called me, it was chloris. Haha. Kinuha nia ako tapos dinala nia ako sa i.e. club. Tpos pinakilala nia ako sa lahat. Haha. Un then she ushered me to my line. Hmm. I met 3 people, I cant remember their names. The i.e. club introduced me to them, they were also freshies under i.e. department. They were all from marikina science high school. Haha. Since I am not that assertive, I did not talk much.. haha.

There, I got my block, G-24. waw. Then I entered the auditorium. It was a bit cold. The show started. Hmm. The hosts were funny though I know all their jokes are rip offs from their last orientations. Haha. Pero mabenta pa rin. Panalo tlga ung rap nila na “kung ang ue ay warriors, an gust ay tigers, ang la sale ay archers… ngunit lahat sila, hindi upacat passers!!” haha. Galeng

So it started fine, I was seated at the right most wing of the auditorium and all mascians ere seated together at the left wing. That’s what I get from being late. Hmm. –taga pisci ung nsa likod ko.. hehe- they started with those boring discussions. Then jokes. Haha. Then the u.p. concert chorus sang. They were good but upsa is still better. Haha. But at least, they were able to entertain us. Then discussions again, then adio visual presentations. Then a dance number, they were not good.. seriously. Then came the up pep squad!! Woohoo. That was the best part of the orientation. Good thing that everybody was up on their seats and game for cheering!. We were shouting. Wooo!! They told us that we were the best audience they had. They taught us all the u.p yells. Haha. It was fun!

That was our orientation. after that orientation, i really felt that i am a certified up student. dun ko lng naramdaman na kolehiyo na ako. bigla kong nlimutan ang masci. haha! joke

Sorry kung hindi maxadong mganda ung pagkakakwento ko.. mejo minamadali ko nlng toh eh.. hehehe tinatamad n nman ako..

Un lng nman un. Tpos nun umuwi na ako. hehe

+recharge;refuel+

2007-05-05T09:46:00.001+08:00

Grown weary

My phone again vibrated for the nth time. It was about 6 30 that opened my eyes and checked my phone for new messages. Then I read some and since my energy was yet to be fueled up completely, I went back to sleep. Again, my phone is ringing for new messages. I decided to wake up, it was 8 30, and read all of it. I don’t know, but I felt so tired after waking up. I don’t feel sleepy, but I really feel drained..

It is getting near.. the sympathy makes it more rapid. I can replenish all my energy anytime I want, I can replenish the gas of my tenacity anytime and anywhere.. but still, I am human.. I cant do everything, I cant live forever for everything. I cant absorb everything.

A sponge can absorb any amount of water it is capable to hold, but when a force acts on it and push it to its constraint, it will then exude everything and burst it all out, gush in insanity.

But not to worry.. I am just tired: Tired of convincing and arguing with other people. It is not easy to do what is right. It is not easy to attmpt to make everything perfect in its place. It is not easy to be me.. I have grown weary.. I need to breathe fresh air. I am throttled.. there is too much pressure, there is too much force..

My memory gap gets worse. It is my fault.. my brain is stuffed with so much misery and problems of other people. It consumes the space for memoirs of my past. Everything is sinking in, but paradoxically, it is not. I am pushing my self to engross it.

It is arduous to hope for the best when all you do is to put a handful of effort over a single problem and never gets better because of resentment. Why cant people think for the best. Why cant people accept realities of life. We converge to resolve things but deep inside, it is still not ok. We cannot sacrifice a little bit of ourselves for the better of somebody else. Everything will end up to one of the deadliest sins.. selfishness.

It is a fact. We cannot be GOD. But it is human nature (should be human nature) to try to be flawless and follow whatever path that should be followed. We have a choice, and it is in our choice that brings us our future. It is not the fault of other people if we regret the thing s from the past, because we have the CHOICE to do what we ought to do.

Problems.. they made me.. I am created with these adversities. They go through my blood. It makes me insane..

A sponge may exude the water, but after that, it will naturally, slowly

absorb

it again..

wahehe

2007-04-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

Ralph saves the day!!

but cant save his day!!

Today is april hmmm… april 29.. yeah. Im watching pb ryt now.. they are currently resolving their differences, maricris and bea.. gawd.. it feels sooo awful.. is this the effect of too much attachment? Or carrying the burden, affliction misery of other people..?? maybe.. this has been me.. the great confidant. The great counselor. The great listener . at least I can call myself a real friend.. though their misery becomes my misery too, I wont leave them in hostility. I am ralph. That’s me. Im a friend.. whew.. so what happened to me these past few days??

April 16-17- burbank outing.. it was interesting.. it was not the best though but I had fun.. it was a different outing.. not the usual swimming

April 18, 2007- I and my friends went to manila memorial to visit the humble lair of my deceased classmate.. she was my first in everything.. hehe.. then we went somewhere else to settle some things....

April 19, 2007- I can remember nothing.. aww.. ph and leslie made me furious. I found myself caught in a deception game and gave me 2^nd thoughts on holding on to that pledge.. woo.. they really got me. And up to now, it still irritates and bothers me.. wahaha.. this was a Thursday and I was supposed to go to up with thea and neph. And waw.. there was ph.. I tried to be nice.. hehe.. after that, everything eventually got ok.

April 20, 2007- hmm.. Friday.. I think i attended the cotillion practice of thea

April 23, 2007- overnyt at thea's haws for her avp

April 24, 2007- nothing really special.. it was just freaky.. hope they will be ok.. sooner. padolina awting that turned into a moa malling

april 25, 2007- einstein outing. i had fun though i felt weird since i am not intimately close with all of the einstein people.

April 26, 2007- we had a practice again at thea’s haws gawd.. haha

Tinatamad nq.. nxt time nlng.

a really bad day..

2007-04-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

exactly 7 am, i woke up, tnx to the alarm clock sponsored by cm. i got up to prepare myself. i dont want to be late for our choir practice. (i have never been on time on our practices.) so there, i took a bath for ten minutes. search for anything to wear, gaaahdd.. i dont have pants to wear anymore, i have used each one of them, then i saw this old rugged pants in my bros closet. i knida did not like it since it looks too old.. but who would mind anyway, so i took it. then, i realized that i have used all my shirts too!! good thing i found my brown shirt in my bros closet .. our clothes sometimes gets mixed up.. and that makes us panic whenever we need one. so there, i wore that plain brown shirt and went off. it was already 8 am.. i was expecting a heavy traffic since 8 am is a "rush hour". so there, yeah, got myself stucked in a traffic in zapote. then i rode a jeepney to alabang to get a las pinas bus ( i swore to god never to ride a cavite bus again ever since i arrived at skul around 10 am because of insufficient public transportation vehicles and heavy traffic) that happened during our graduation practices. so there, i tried to wait for a bus, but gaaaahd!! 20 mins have passed and all the buses were refusing to give me a ride since all of them are fully loaded, so i rode a jeepney going to baclaran. then got jammed again in a traffic at coastal road. gaaawd, it was so hot!! so i asked the driver to drop me at mia road, then i rode a tas trans bus. woo.. that was soo tiring. guess what, i arrived at scool around 9 30 pm. gaawd, all the hardships and effort to come to school on time got wasted. argghh.. so that started my day...

after it was even worse. the practice was kinda, hmmm, okay in the morning session, but after that, gaaahhd, i got irritated maybe it wsa because of the fan, or the fact that we were not doin anything, or because i was not able to internalize everything we ought to sing, or maybe i was expecting it to be done by 12. the fact that i brought so much things and prepared so much for our badminton session got me irritated. singit lang ( we ate at a carinderia near our skul, it was cheap and i got everybody game for it) so there, the choir practice finished. then i was expecting that leslie, ph, nino and i would still play badminton( i am getting better evry session!!) but then, it turned out that we would just sit still, wait for god to end this world and go home. so there, we went home, while waiting for a bus, i suddenly felt this scourging feeling inside my stomach. gaad, it really hurts, like ulcer or something.. so i asked them if we could eat at kfc. so there we ate... then everything got worse.. i drank too much rootbeer and made my condition worse.. i was not able to finish my food.. that costs 90 php.. gaaahhdd!! i need to save money... then after that.. wooo... the dramatic concerto started.. with ph then with leslie.. woo. i got irritated... my stomach was really killing me then they started to go mellowdramatic. i saw that last phrse.. i really got irritated.. ralph. feeling close nman ako. woo.. i really hate those dramatic phrases... just like dani.. who told guiwo that, feeling close nman ako kay ralph.. argghh..watafrend tlga.. when i thought that we really were friends, and we really were close enough to be called friends. that makes me feel that i am also a "feeling close" human being to them.. then leslie cried.. it was my fault.. woo.. i shoud not have said that.. i was too insensitive.. so.. i got really depressed.. then it rained.. we waited for it to stop.. i was not really attacehd with reality then.. i was not with myself.. so there, after that, we went home..

we first went to lrt to drop nino then we rode a bus then leslie left at buendia. then i slept, i was too tired.. and it was too cold in that freakn bus. i was dreaming of pokemon.. haha... i was traumatized by the pokemon epi i saw in gma that morning.. so there, everything ash and misty were saying was about balut.. kwek kwek.. haha.. ph woke me up from that nice dream, zapote na pla.. so i was not really that awke then.. i was half awake actually.. parang lasing lang tpos "huh, zapote na?? ahh..baba na ako, paalam" half awake, i crossed the road.. then i saw i light.. it was so bright.. beeeeeeep!! woah.. it almost hit me. gawd.. good thing it stopped "putang ina mo! magpapakamatay kb??" the driver told me.. i can still remember, a marron lancer.. i think.. woo.. i almost died.. gawd..

then i went home.. went ot the cr.. my eyes started to shake. then haha, slapped myself.. im still alive..

i was not really conscious today.. i was not with myself... too many problems.. too much frustrations.. confusion.. guen? gawd.. everything is not sinking in.. overload.... i need..... something..

friends. old and new.

2007-04-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

i am happy with my friends. i am sad.. i got only a few. tnx to u.

royce, for supporting me when i thought everything will

Collapse. I really am thankful. For texting me though it was already 1 am in the morning. Tnx.. for the kiss.. haha.. I love kissing u.. haha

Leslie.. for always being there when I am down.. sori too for my dramatic texts,, haha.. but still, tnx for everything.. for trusting me with ur secrets.. thanks for tripping me, haha..

Guiwo.. for my bestfriend, who was there for four straight years.. thank u for all the moments we shared, for the simple tap.. for believing in what I can do. For always being there.. for understanding me.. for trying so hard to fulfill my desires.. for always siding me in every problem I had.. for being such a good friend.. for all the concern.. I am really thankful to have a loyal bestfriend like u.

ronel.. though, I only just knew u.. I am thankful because u are very honest and open. I thank u for trusting me. Thank u for the badminton plays. Tnx for the advices. U are such a good friend.. tnx

dani.. tnx for always treating me.. haha though I have money.. thank u for being guiwos friend.. thank u for supporting me in all the adversities I face.. thank u for being us when we wat to see a movie. Thank u for lending me ur ps2.. thank u..

these are the people I am thankful for now.. these people whom I put my confidence with assurance.. where are the others.. I don’t know.. gone with the wind.. happy? Maybe..

2007-04-09T22:06:00.000+08:00

April 8 kahapon. Its easter Sunday, esther day, ruffy nd esther day.. hehe.. good for them, woo… ngtagal cla for that long.. congrats!! Hehe.. seriously.. im happy for them.. hehe.. yes.. im sad.. pero ok lang un.. hehe

Gaya nga ng sabi nila.. new life.. haha, kelangan pa plan g easter Sunday para mgbagong buhay. Un. Ok na ako.. so wats next for me?? I don’t know.. just hoping for the best for me. Ill just go with the flow.

Ok. Nu b gnawa ko ngaun. Haha.. badminton with ph, nino at cm.. kapagod. Sayang c leslie, di sumama pero ok nman. Ndi ako naop eh. Un.. laro laro. Naligo lang ako sa pawis. Laro.. then.. may naalala ako.. c nino kc.. naalala ko c gxxx.. gawd.. gawd tlga.. saying lahat… malapit na bday nia… magdedebut na sana xa next year.. –sigh- I miss her.. T.T

Mark the day, april 18..

birthday?

2007-04-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

I just turned seventeen.. gawd… it is sooo different.. I don’t feel like 17, I feel like 15!! Though I look 18 in my most exhausted moment in my life.. that is great!! Maybe, I don’t feel like 17 because I hardly felt my birthday.. gawd.. this is the 2nd to the worst bday I have ever had.. well, the first one was last year…

Why didn’t I feel my birthday. I was not able to clench the essence of my birthday due to my “laspag” mode last grad ball, and the grad ball itself. I was assigned to make the avp, (which I happily accepted and in fact I volunteered to make it) 31 hours. It took me that long. Our computer is such a shit.. it is so sluggish and ready for breakdown. I hate that don’t send thing on my screen, telling me that the program should close. I experienced it for more that ten times, so I had to start allover again my avp. Good thing, it has a recover mode implanted in its program. Woohhh.. I used two computers, onepc and one laptop. The problem with that laptop is it has a 539 mb space for storage. Gawd!!!whats with this computer!! It does not even have anything in it but there is only 500++ memory. So I have to do everything almost manually. I can actually put it in automatic mode but it will take ages before it finishes. So there, around 4 pm, I finished the avp without checking it or even, having a glimpse of the finished product..

Ok. Continuation. There, I was able to finish the avp around 3 pm.. after that, I got flustered, went to Robinsons immediately to buy a tie, but I found my self, looking for longsleeves. So my parents left me there, they went to my brother’s apartment to get my coat. Everything seems so impromptu. Adrenaline rush, I went directly to the department store, nothing was there, I went to lacoste, onesimus, bench?! Penshoppe?! Then I saw g2000! It was on sale!! I saw a stunning polo. It was black and sold for only 700 pesos! That was 30 percent off, so I immediately purchased it. It took me one and a half hour to find that polo. I matched it with my gray tie. I arrived at the hotel, wearing nothing but sheer house attire.. haha. I felt so poor then.. haha then I immediately got the keys of my room from the freaky lady at the frontdesk and in a flash, went to my room, washed, and got dressed. I looked good!!

Then the gradbol started,, they showed the avp, it was good.. I think everybody liked it. Then we danced.. I danced with jansot.. 5 songs.. (tinatamad na ako mgtype) I danced with esther.. it was the worst ever.. I was about to cry then.. good thing I am equipped with tear controlling device. So I was able to impede it from flowing intensely. Woo… there.. my day came. Ding dong. 12 am na. some greetd me.. some did not.. it was fine. So we celebrated my birthday ( coper) in our room, ate mcdo and slept. That was it. And left my pocket totally wrecked. Goodd… but then, when everybody was out, and as I was cleaning up the room coper left me to clean up, a sound of the bell suddenly chimed. I opened the door.. T.T all of the Einstein people went in, carrying a cake with them, singin me a happy birthday.. I was really touched.. I was about to burst out in tears.. pero nakakahiya un. Haha so, I controlled it once again. So there.. I was not able to absorb it fully. Haggard.. so then, we went to school for practice, then ate with the choir people. Then dani and guiwo bought me a ring.. it was good.. I liked it.. then I went home.. lost.. drained.. and went to sleep.. it was not the best birthday. Gloomy.. sad.. morbid!!! I hate u.. u ruined it.. ex.

redo and undo

2007-01-26T19:47:00.000+08:00

haha. tagal ko ring ndi nagpost. pero filing ko parang last wik lng un.. haha... nu na nb nangyari nagun?? la namna, kaya lng ako di ngpopost kc tinatamad ako o maraming ginawa... dumaan na ang pasko at bagiong taon.. haha

onga pla, namatay ang lola ko nung fri at nilibing na xa kahapon.. nkakalungkot tlga... pero ang nkakatuwa dun, kc nareunite ulit ang aming untalan family, lahat cla nandito ngaun.. ang lungkot tlga.. haaaay.. thats life.. weird. why live life to the fullest if it will reach an end.. ?? haha.. ang wierdo ko tlga...

un.. marami namna ang nangyari.. ito ung pinakamalaki.. (bahala na kung cno man magbasa nito.. blog ko to.. haha) nagalit sa akin c dahil binigyan ko ang EX ko na gf nia ngaun ng regalo.. haha. aminado ako na masama un.. haha... maxadong mganda ung regalo eh.. mahal nga eh... ang di ko maintindihan ay kung bkt binigay ko pa.. haha... magsosorry b aku?? ewan.. baka hindi.. haha... sama ko noh?? ok lng... sbi nila na masama ung ginawa ko eh.. edi masama.. dala lng nman ito ng kagustuhan kong mapasaya ung EX ko. pero weird. dapat nga naman na hindi ako ganun kc cla na. eh anu ngaun?? un b ang magiging dahilan ng pagtigil ko ng pagpapsaya ng tao?? parang pareho lng kc un ng pagbigay ko ng regalo sa mga 30 na tao.. ngaun lng nmana ko ngbigay eh.... last yr nga hnde eh.. nagkataon lng na binili ko ung gusto nia.. cge. aminado na spesyal nga ung regalo.. haayyy.. eh anu ngaun.. magbigay nlng dn xa ng regalo na espesyal.. masaya na namna ako na natuwa xa sa regalo ko.. at least, naglaan ako ng effort na magbigay sa pasko.. galit b ako?? haha.. hnde ah.. ewan, nahihiya ba ako?? hindi rn ata? bkt nman walang dahilan. (pero baka nga.. haha) masaya lng tlga kc ako... nu b ang pnt ko.. di ko rn alam eh... bawal kmi mgcommunicate? oo.. sbi nila para walang gulo dahil habang nandito ako, hndi mtatahimik c miguel.. haha.. ganun na pla akong kalala.

friends kme? oo, cge.. ok lng. xa galit sken.. ako.. ewan. undefined(baka) nkakainis na kc eh. nasakanya na nga ung EX ko eh... kulang nlng tanggapin ko un. haha. haha.. nkakainis nga e. ako ang masama sa tingin ng mga tao.. ok.. cge.. filing ko rn..

pero. masakit dn nman eh.... oo tama. kc, cla. kc xa ung mahal.. ako.. la na. panggulo lng ako sa buhay nila.. ndi nman ako ung bida eh,.. clang dalawa.. haaay....

msaya ako.. kpag magkatxt kame.. la lng.. nkakatuwa lng.. pero cguro ngaun.. di na muna, kc iisipin ng iba na may something na.. ganun nman plagi eh. meron ngang something pero ako lng un.. ung txt ko lng nman ay walang bahid ng malisya,, kung anu ang tinetxt ko sa iba, un dn ang tinetxt ko sa iba.. ang nkakainis lng dun.. haha... bwal na kc. ndi na kme pedng mgcommunicate.. haha. la ba akong karapatan?? khit EX ako?? haha. baliw ka tlga. we started with texting, got to know each other with texting and end up with texting. un. dun na ang paalam nun.. sasabihin na sa susnod nlng kpag nkabangga kta 20 yrs from now...

so ano na ngaun?? haha.. im desperate.. haha.. hindi ko ito gusto. nkakabwisit.. ayoko na.. gusto kong sumuko.. oo.. para wala ng gulo.. pero sadyang SELFISH ako. masama nga ako.. oo masama nga ako..( sasabihin na nila na hindi ito pagmamahal.. dhil masama na ito..) oo msama na ako.. sobra.. sobra kong ramdam.... sa kahit anung anggulo nman eh.. ako ang amsama.. taggap ko un.. oo masama ako. khit ikwento nila sa teacher, sa kpawa estudyante.. ako ang masama.......... khit kei maam D pa.. haha.. ang sakit kaya nun.. cguro, sa tingin nia na ang selfish ko.. hhaaahaha.. onga pla selfish ako.. damn. the hell.

kelan kaya ung saya?
iwan na nila ako.
im a freak
the hell..
i really need to forget everything..
pls help me..
how?

onga pla.. i celebrated again our anniv last wed. wooo.. it was damned fun! ___ fuck, don't listen to this man. he is insane!

october fever

2006-10-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaaaaa.. bkt kelangan kong dalhin ang mga pasakit ng ibang tao.. ahaha.. panget.. ayn. tagalog ngaun.

ngayong oktubre, ang daming nangyari. nkakainis.. ang dami kong nalaman.. na dapat ay hindi ko malaman.

raaaaaaarrrrrr..

bwisit.

onga pla, bago muna lahat, magdidiwang ako ngaun MAGISA! ahaha, 33rd na. oct 24!!

sakto nman ngaun. ahaha, kc kahapon na ang huling araw ng aming paguusap. kc balik na ulet ngaun.. weee.. masaya na ako ng ganun. at least masaya kahapon.

kwento muna ako. un. moa kmi kahapon ni esther at guiwo. un, sinundo ko xa sa mrt, ang tagal, parang timang, nkalunch na aku, la prn. ok lng,, 11 nman kc usapan, excited ata ako maxado at 10 15 ako dumating. un, dumating na xa. edi punta kmi ng moa. silence lng.. ahaha. pagdating dun, punta kmi national tpos dumaan sa likod entrance nito at taran, surprise. nandun c kamil.

un una naming ginawa ay, ahah, ay, nagpapicture, panget ung pic e, tpos ice cream, tpos ice skating, un nga lng, ngalit c esther, tinwanan kc nmen,, eh. la lng.. kaya nagalit dn ako, kainis kc eh. ngiging mabait na nga ako e, tpos cnigawan pa ako, cnbi pa" wag ka nga!" wala akong pake"" wush, un, ngulat nman ako kc dahil dun, prang ok ung skating ko, 1st tym pero di ako nadapa, ahaha. tpos nun kain ng luch, mga 3 na un, tpos dancd maniax tpos dun sa dagat na marumi at uwi. tpos wala na. tpos na ulit ang lahat,ganun lng un.. ang saya, nagaway kme... 1st tym ba??

o nga pla, knina, ngmidyear kme, mejo nahaggarg ako, tpos may burbank pa.. huhu, la na kc akong energy kaya di na ako nkapunta.

un.,..

nu b problema???

marami.

nalulungkot ako s amga nangyayari.. tsktsk...

yoko na iexplain. nkakalungkot lng tlga, still, consider them friends, though not close.

human beings prn nman lahat eh.. hmm.. clue.. double mint chewing gum??

hehe..

onga pla.. in demand ako ngaun.. di rn masaya, kc, minsan ikaw ung masama.. nguguluhan na nga ako ehh.. pano na kaya ung sa coper. haaay.. kaya dati, sbi ko na wag ikalat sa buong mundo e kc ndi nman certain un.. kaya ngaun.. ewan.. masam n nman ako kpag cnbi ko na crush lng.. haaay....... parusa cguro toh, di kc ako ngccmba e..

24 ngaun!!!! kelan ko b yan mkakalimutan.. click!

fave

waaa, di ko na alam.

for the last time. i love you, i love everything in you, especially YOU..

-sigh-

masaya na ako ngaun. new life!

2006-10-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

the title is september 26 2007

You dont seem to understand why.. why I dont want it to be this way.

Its not that I dont want it to be that way, it is just that there are some things that I cannot bear to come into contact with. I know the intentions are decent. I know.. but please, dont be egocentric..

Its only now that I have grasped the real reason why I feel odd whenever these intentions come into place. Let me elucidate further. Yes I want to be THE friend that I feel u want me to be. What I dont want is the sentiment I undergo in this time of intention inducing situations.

.. resentment. A feeling a friend does not desire to feel. Comment – if there is animosity, then tell it, rather that being a die hard synthetic manufacturer. The hell.. I feel that u release the fury on that intention preoccupied lady. why not tell it to me and let me justify everything. But I guess, thatll be hard for someone who can hardly accept criticisms. But I really do hope that sympathy is still a preference.

.. truth is, I am a feeler. I dont crave for a treatment that is as if it is the same treatment that was before felt. The same treatment that u used to give me when we were still THE WE I long before desired -even though I didnt know it..- or am i just not used to you being that way to rag. im puzzled. I dont want to expect something that seems to be unattainable. I am a feeler. Thats why it hurts a lot.

.. agony. Be at least considerate. Whenever I experience being with the binary you, I feel devastated. Through my smile, I expose my pain. Through my radiant eyes I show my rage, through my word I show my rigidity. I am a phony. I hide the pain behind happiness. The hell.

Well, formally, I ended that past, and that past should be erased in eternity. For the sake of my best friend, I sacrificed my dignity. Be not my friend, because it is not supposed to be that way. After this, go back to reality. Go back to the usual and never see beyond that. Ahhhhhhh!!! I hate my stupidity!!! I have moved on!

But why are these tears running down on my damned, cursed face.

dengue outbreak

2006-09-29T16:32:00.000+08:00

outing duringrainy seasons

Yesterday, I had an expedition to find a car charger for my sony ericsson mobile. Damn, it was an exciting one! It all started around 1 pm. The blustery wind calmed down. So I decided to go to sm Molino. So I waited for a jeepney, but the hell, after 30 minutes, no jeepney appeared. So at that point, I was not sure if I am going to go to sm but in the end, I decided to continue my pursuit on a car charger.

So I went to the other side of the road, it is a good thing that there is still another sm besides sm Molino, sm bacoor! So I waited for a jeepney again, but then, there were no signs of it. The hell, the sky started to grow dim. At last, a tricycle arrived, it saved my expedition! I was so fond of looking around the streets as the tricycle drove down it. I was appalled of the setting. The river was almost as high as the road, all the trees were knocked down, houses were devastated.

There so I arrived at zapote after 15 minutes. There were no human beings present. Well, actually, all of them were at the sidewalk waiting for a jeepney. There was no commotion or fuss, unlike the usual busy zapote. Everybody was just standing.. aww.. so I realized that again, another obstruction came by.. no jeepneys.. I was lucky because I saw a lone jeepney going alabang. It is a good thing that there is still another sm besides sm Molino and bacoor, there is still sm southmall! Yehey, it started to rain, then I saw a flock of birds swirling like crazy animals, I think there were hundreds of them, they went crazy, two birds even knocked themselves on the side of the jeepney. I think they are still alive..

Ahaha, las pinas was even worse. The wind started to release its fury, the hell, branches of trees started fly like lunatic penguins? -Well, that was the first thing that popped out in my head, I have my own imagination, get yourself ur own ok??- there, then roofs were like flying sheets of paper, I got excited that time, ahaha, I thought it will hit the silver revo at our back. Ahahaha, the most thrilling part was when I saw the actual scene of a tree being knockd down by the blustering wind. Ahahahaha. There, I got dizzy after that. After a long disaster marathon, I a finally arrived at sm southmall..

To be continued, I need to go.. I only rented a pc..

Ok.. I will continue my post for the sake of formality.. though I want to make a new one because Im a bit down right now.

There, so I arrived at sm southmall, damn, it was closed, actually, they let people go inside due to the weather, I don’t know if the stores were open but there were persons inside, the only hitch is power failure. There, right then on, I realized that I needed to go home. The conditions were getting worse. So I went out and tried to look for a jeepney. The hell, i told myself that I should have brought an umbrella even if it can only barely help me since the wind might just mess it up. I was wearing shorts then, it was really chilly. Haha, I was lucky again, a jeep going to paliparan passed by, haha. So I rode that jeepney. Then, I remembered that it will pass by sm Molino so again, I decided to go there. And when I arrived there, the hell, it was close. So at that moment, I gave up my desire of carrying on my expedition. So i again rode a jeepney going straight to zapote. But then, I saw rfc, the hell, it has electricity, imagine, all sm’s had a power failure but this puny rfc has electricity! So I went inside, there were many cheap, economical, low cost stores. So there, there I found the conclusion of my pursuit. At last a car charger! After a long escapade in a site of calamity. I found the answer in rfc, not in sm.. haha..

Well.. that’s all..

Passage from my skull
Trust is hard to obtain, so never expect someone will trust you after you spoil that trust..

crabby patty

2006-09-29T16:28:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. ngiging prang iana na ata ah.. cge cge cge.. think before u speak ang quote nia.. hehehe.. lam ko nman mabait ako.. gullible pa nga e.. pero.. ok lng.. msama dw ako e.. cge.. face the truth

^RED ALGAE^

2006-09-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

RED ALGAE

Guess what. Today is the 24th of September. There is nothing particular in this day but the fact that 24 + 8 =32. nice numbers right? Each of them means something. Am I baffling you?? do you want me to be straightforward? Well, the fact that 8 is THEIR number and 24 is mine, and 32 means the 32nd month. then, it really is something to celebrate or to at least commemorate. a whole big ball of inexplicable, bizarre confusion. uhhmmm. well, the hell, nevermind.. (anyway, that kalachuchi there.. it reminds me of the person im talking about.. dont know why? it was shot in paco park)

It is so irritating.. it is an event that is engraved on my internal calendar. Whenever this day comes, the 24th day, I am bothered by the things that might have happened. Sayang nga. -I will not spit out dreadful words today ok?, im trying to be a decent man..- kk, there.. sometimes, I feel that my parents think that im absurd or crazy. They would see me walking around the house smiling and giggling.. ahaha.. isn’t it ironic? I should be weeping and howling like a dead dog, but instead, I was smiling.. ahaha.. it is because some clips of my past pass by my head.

Ahaha.. happy memories. I remember when we were in front of the old retail. We were both sitting on the bench.. then, I was telling her some chapters I have read in my 1st year book report in Filipino, ang tundo man ay may langit din. (though right now, I cant even remember one charcter) hehe.. it was fun, it is only now that I have realized that. She was really internalizing the story.. haha.. then after a week, she was asking me what happened to the story, she wanted me to tell her the continuation.. hehe.. cute.. she really was internalizing the story.

Then when we were in first year. We had our practice for our sabayan.. as usual, everyone was late, then we were already there, while we were waiting, I rested my head on her soft thighs.. hehe, the hell.. I didn’t realize that I liked her a lot.. right then, I thought everything is a comic story. I thought everything is a joke. -well, im only 13 then..- hehe, paco park really is a site full of memories..

The hell.. just forget everything.. it sets hurdles in my situation. The hell.. hehe.. still, im happy that I met somebody like her. And now, burn everything in my memoir.

(wow, i posted something in english today! isnt that weird???)

==angels and demos=

2006-09-18T21:14:00.000+08:00

this is the last time
that I'm ever gonna come here tonight
this is the last time - I will fall
into a place that fails us all - inside

I can see the pain in you
I can see the love in you
but fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

the angels they burn inside for us
are we ever
are we ever gonna learn to fly
the devils they burn inside of us
are we ever gonna come back down
come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

this is the last time that
I'm ever gonna give in tonight
are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see

still I can see the pain in you
and I can see the love in you
and fighting all the demons will take time
it will take time

if I was to give in - give it up
- and then take a breath - make it deep
cause it might be the last one you get
be the last one that could make us cold
you know that they could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

shet

2006-09-18T20:50:00.000+08:00

shet shet shet. nkakapagod. ewan ko.. ngaun, tinatamad ako gumawa ng assigns.. f*@k nu ba ito. umalan na kc, tpos, nabasa pa. kainis. un lng.. ok.. mamaya, gagawa nrn ako ng mga kelangan ko gawin.

un. ayus nman lahat. no communication. oo nga. kalimutan na, mainam un, ahaha. tutal, di ko nrn nman kilala un eh...... un. nanalo kme sa parlia. parang wala lng.. nging interpolator ako, isang beses lng. kinabahan tlga ako. kc akala ko la ako mkikitang mali sa ibang grupo, buti nlng meron ako nkita. pero, nkakakaba tlga..

pagkatapos nun, kain kme sa office. tpos deretso ako sa choir, saya, ganda nung kanta. pinakamasaya tlga ako sa choir. tpos tennis nman.. ok lng nman, ang apnget kc ng laro ko.. pero ok lng.

kinabukasan ngacet ako.. ang tagal ng mga magulang ko kaya nalate kme. ang traffic na at mga 1 pm na nun, la pa kme sa ateneo. dumating ako ng rum mga 1 30, buti di pa cla ngstastart. kaya, tamang tama lng ung pagdating ko. un. ngtest ako. ok lng xa. nkakahilo lng, lalo na ung reading at abstract. parang timang lng.. sana pumasa ako. mejo marami rn kc ung hinulaan ko. kulang sa oras.

monday. haha. puro test. 3 lng nman, pero nkakahaggrd tlga, 2 st ang tinest ko, math, tska ung sa health. bukas may pe kme kaya masaya!//
nu b problema. la lng.. hmm.. karen joy adiao. kinuha ko mga notebuks nia... kelan kaya.. pano kaya... kelangan mging magaling.. oo ..oo... tama.. kaya to... hi karen!! ahahaha.. magulo prn.. ewan... di ko lam. kung un na tlga.. letse... amph kc ung dati eh.. tsktsk... pahirap.. oonga pla.. di ko na kilala un.. kaya ok na.. hehe... timang ka tlga ralph... un.. un lng nman..... gawa na nga ako ng assigns ko... ahahaha... ahahah

im in need of companion,
of friendship
of people?
apply ka na

finally.

2006-09-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

I don’t know why I am writing this.. I just want to write it..
Finally, the line I made ended with a point. A point where I have learned to accept it. A point where I gave up. A point where I found a better one.
It ended just like a snap. With a simple quote, with a simple tortuous argument. With a simple paper. A pen.. panda..
I will adhere to my decision. It is for the better. I cant ceaselessly continue this foolishness . So I stopped. It was a month ago when I started to think about it. To reflect. To find the remedy to my dilemma.
So why am I saying this.. I don’t know why. I am just satisfied with my choice. And I really am hoping that it is the right one.
I know and I put all my confidence in this choice.
Finally, it has come to its end

weh... la nang energy

2006-09-06T20:53:00.001+08:00

talo kme.. haha.. ok lng, expected..

ngaun
ano ang problema ko..

marami..

unahin ang: -drumroll-

summative sa math- di ko lam lesson nmin

tle- kung ano man meron dun., may gnagawa cla na mahairap na di ko nman alam kung panu gawin..

social-st test.. ok lng, dali lng un..

filipino- mga awtput ko,, gingawa ko an xa ngaun.. hehe

physics, ndi ko na lam lesson nmin, la nrn ako pake dito.. di nmana ako mgphyphysics sa college eh.

comp sci- lam ko bumagsak aku nung 1st qtr dito.. kaya kelangan magarala ako ng mabuti..

parliamentary- ewan ko b.. naiinis ako dito.. sa mga tao.. di nman lahat, sa iba lng..

ad chem- la akong notes, la apng sw at hw...

ssg- nu nb nangyayari smen.. ewan ko.. ndi nga kmi ngmimiting eh..

finite math- wala akong alam dito!! aah... pakiramdam ko,, mahihirap ang mga lesson nmin dito.. aw..

isa lng nmn un eh.. kelangan ko nang magpakagc ulit.. pangako ko ngaun.. pakagc ako bukas. nu man ang mangyari.. di na ako tatamarin.. kaya ko ito.. amph... gc gc gc..

buhayin ang blog ko!

2006-09-03T22:31:00.000+08:00

haha, buhay na ulit blog ko, salamat kei cm, nkakainspire kc ung blog nia, parang buhay na nia, haha. kaya, un, maguupdate na ako. waaah.. kaya ko ito, ang haba kc ng mga nkalagay s ablog nila eh, tsktsk, nkakatamad magtype.. nu nb nangyari sken. hmm. sbi ni nephele, sinasalihan ko na ang lahat, oo nga, narealize ko rn.

ano nga b ang sinalihan ko at di na ako umaattend ng klase?
1. ssg treasurer- kahit treasusrer ako, hindi lng ito ang aking ginagampanan, multi purpose! di lng sa pera dpat, pati bulletin board, meeting, mga training, magorganize ng mga events na bigla bigla nlng sumusulpot.

2. representative ng skul- dahil nga ssg ako, kelangan kong pumunta kung saan saan. pero at least, nkapaghotel pa ako, haha sa manila pavillion, dahil kmi ang representatives para sa filipino japanese student forum, masaya nmna cla ksama tsaka saya ng experience, daming pagkain, haha..

3. choir member- bkt nga b ako nging choir, eh di nman ako mgaling kumata, tono lng nman alam ko.. hmm.. bsta.. masaya kc kpag kumakanta ng praise songs, dun ako ntutwa eh.. kaya ako ngchoir para sa diyos.. haha.. totoo un..

4. vice president ng KoS- eto pa.. pinaka malaking club ng masci.. huhu.. pinapagalitan na nga ako kc bhira ako umattend ng miting pero ginagawa ko nman ng magaling ang lahat ng sinasabi ng presidente nmin.. haha.. ngsisigawan pa nga kmi paginuutusan nia ako eh, demanding kc eh.. jok lng.. hehe

5. varsity- ewan ko nga b kung bkit ako nging varsity.. dhil un kc kei.. haay.. di natuloy mabitawan.. masama ung nangyari dati.. wag nang ikwento.. hehe..

6. parliamentarian- magaling b ako dito..? haha bsta, ginagawa ko ang alaht ng makakaya ko, kaya sa tingin ko ok nman ako dito eh.. masaya nga xa khit terror ung guro nmin, msaya magdebate, masaya magispi, masaya mging analytical! di masaya magaral.. hehe

7. treasurer ng MYCADA- haha, by appointment lng to,, haha la pa nman maxadong ginagwa, pero malapit na un.. c sally president dito. kaya un, ok nman to, kc nagattend na ako ng konsultahang kabataan dati at masaya ung nangyri, marami ang naitulong nito sken.

8. treasurer ng STEP- demoted na nga ako eh.. haha! dati president. ok lng. di ko rn nman maxadong gusto ito eh. inappoint lng ako kaya gagawin ko ang lahat para matulungan ang aming presidente, c miguel ruffy. hehe

9. oratorical, timpalak- yan, parati akong kasali jan haha.. at parati rin akong eliminated. un ata ang purpose ko sa mga ganito eh. prang props lng. masabi lng na may elimination.. hehe.. pero ok lng nman, at least kasama sa elimination.

10. escort ng ymca- haha, pinakamalai ko itong responsibilidad. maari ko itong ipagmalaki.. hahaha!! kaya ung mga conceited jan.. (kilala nio na kung cno kau- hehe, dapat may ganyan dn kaung posisyon. hehe

11. estudyante ng masci- yan, eto ang pinakamahirap.. nkakainis nga eh, kala ko ok na ung 1st qtr. ok ung mga quizzes ko, summative, recitation.. pero.. dahil sa exam.. may bagsak tuloy ako.. comp sci.. ok lng.. di lng nman silver medal ang pangarap ko.. mas malaki pa run. at alam kong kaya ko yun! hehe

yana ng mga sinalihan ko ata ng ginagwa ko sa masci! masaya yan.. hehe parang 1/2 ng buhay ko sa masci ay sa labas ng klase at ung kalahati ay sa loob. experience plus academics = lahat na!! hehe, la masbi eh..

ibang topic nman'
npaisip tuloy ako, dun sa post ni ph. 'bestfriend' nsan na kaya un.? 3 kme dati eh.. tsktsk. ok. un lng. nanjan nman c kamil eh.. hehe

undisclosed.

2006-07-14T20:19:00.001+08:00

He was seven then. The lost soul he saw was sitting, waiting.. He held her hand, it was soft, smooth, a pillow filled with flimsy feathers. Her hands were blushing in pink, he wanted to hold it ceaselessly. It felt like mortality.. A feeling he wanted. Though the design was menacing, they both agreed upon it.. he saw mutuality, she saw love, both love and mutuality. Till they see each other, till the sun gush in anger and the moon gyrate on a different course, till the actual turns into figment. He held her hand for a few minutes, twelve times the moment, a few time to love her, to care for her, his innocence was a nuisance to the things he could have done to turn the moments into pearls. But he realized, it was not the moment that turned into pearl, it was his solitude. She then stopped grasping for air. He lost her hand, her soft, cold hand. Priceless pearls came down rushing from his sense. i need her lost soul.. her soul..

ang lakas ng ulan....

2006-07-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

noong sabado.. gumising ako ng 8 am... bglang ngtxt c arvi, " sabay tau, 9 am, sa meatshop". as usual, sa meatshop, khit di nmna tlga dun, tinawag na lng na meatshop ung buong vicinity.

un, nkita ko na xa, di ko lam na hinatid pla xa ng kanyang tatay, kaya un, nkakahiya, di ako nggreet.. sakay na kmi ng van na kulay puti, ang panget pero ok nrn, malamig sa loob. un, kwentuhan nmn kme. at as usual, un prn ang kwinento nia sken,, haha!! ang kanyang kajugjugan... edi ako,, cge, oo, tama yan,, hehe. suporta ako plage... un late na kme, nakarating kme ng jolibee ng mga 10 30.. bukas na nga lang ako mgtutuloy, tinatamad na ako.. cia0!!

naruto

2006-07-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

ang ganda ng naruto, bkt kaya.. sabi ko dati, nung mga 2003 ata, nung ngsisimula pa ang naruto, sabi ko, parang timang nman ung mga nbabaliw dun, di nman maxadong mganda.. pero ngaun,, npanuod ko na ung epi no. 1- 180 at sobrang ganda!!! hehe, napanuod ko nrn ung movie.. ang ganda rin.. ang ganda.. tae, ang ganda tlga nung storya, mahusay ang mga gumawa ng storya, at ngaun yakitate japan nman ang aking pinapanood, pero bihira nlgn ako mkanood, dami kc ginagawa sa skul.. un.. hehe. -inuubo pren aku--sigh----- amp.. cge, un lng.. hinihika na aku..

2006-07-05T20:22:00.000+08:00

tagal na aku di nguupdate.. yan.. mejo masaya ako ngaun at walang ginagawa kaya mgpopost aku.. haha. un. nu b nangyari ngaun, ntulog ako kagabi sa apartment ng kuya ko, ok pala dun, mas nkakagawa ako ng assignment. un. may sakit ako kc kahapon, nilalagnat at sinisipon ako. un. ngpalate ako kanina papuntang skul.. ok lng nman, la nman c mam erencio.. derederetso lng ako, 7:15 na aku dumating.. at pagdating ko, namalayan ko na may ubo na pla ako.. kaya ngaun, nghihikahos prn ako. un. ng sit in ako sa einstein ngaun. ok lng, masaya nman, hmm.. compared sa.. jok,.. hehe, mahal ko rn nman ang coper. ngattend ako ng cs nila, haha, hndi ako napancn ni mam aniban.. haha.. mainam tlga.. sana nga eistein ako, saya ng mga tao sa kanila.. hehehe...

walang title.

2006-05-22T18:44:00.000+08:00

yan.. matino ang internet nmin.. ahehe, kya makakapost ako.. ok.. yan.. nung saturday, last day nmin sa nucleus.. mganda ung araw na un!! ngulat kc ako. nung tinignan ko ung score ko sa simulation. 67.7 ata.. mataas xa.. wahaha, nsa top 20 cguro.. gulat tlga ako, tuwa nman ako kc gumagana pa pla utak ko.. hmm.. masaya na sana, pero, ang init dun sa audi ng wesleyan.. prang timang lng. c jay v pla ang ngtop, ang galeng nga eh, 77.7 ang score nia.. lahat ng top 10, masci, kya lng may katie c jay v na ibang skul, ang galeng.. un. pagkatapos nun, pumunta ako sa makati, manonood dw kc cla karen ng da vinci code, e la c kamil, kaya maoop aku nun, un punta nlng kao ng makati.. kumain lng ako dun sa tita ko, tpos bgla ngtxt c ray, sama dw ako, la dw kasama c arvi. un, punta ako sa kfc. c ruffy kc, maarte, ayaw pa sumama.. aheheh. adventure un, planado ung pgpunta nmin sa cinema 1 ng rob. un, pumila na kme sa ticket booth, c karen, natatakot kc kinukuhaan ng id, e la kme, malamng minors kme.. un, nung kukuha na kme ng ticket, sbi nung babae na ngbebenta ng ticket ay itanong muna sa gwardya kung papapasukin ba kme. un punta nman kme sa gwardya, tagal dn ng negosasyon nmen. un pinakita ni ray ang kanyang credit card, so ok na xa, x arvi nman, pinakita ung sm advantage card at ung up efek, naniwala nman ung gwardya, e kme ni ayen wala tlga.. ahaha, un binigay sken ni ray ung bpi ata na un, c ayen nman ung laking national ata ni arvi, ahaha un pinapasok na kme, ang galeng tlga nmen, todo ang angkting.. ahaahhaha. un napanood na namin!! para kmeng timang, kc nung nkapasok na kmi ay ngtalunan kme, kme lng ata ni arvi.. ahaha. un, ok nman ung movie. maganda. ndi ko lng maxadong naabsorb lahat kc di ko pa nbabasa ung libro.. at la akong intensyong basahin un.. un.. tpos uwe na. pumuta pa cla arvi at kren sa bahay nmen. parang timang lng, sandali lng nman cla eh.. ehehehe..

nkakapagod mgtype, sa susunod nlng... hehe

weee

2006-05-11T16:32:00.000+08:00

nsa alva ako ngaun, nandito c karen, nanggugulo ng buhay.. ung ube ko,, di ko pa rin nattagpuan... good shepherd pa naman iyon. at ngaun.. may nalaman ako mula kay karen.. haha.. tsktsk.. galing kme rob kanina.. bumili kme ng regalo kei thea. binili nmin ang isang pusang movable ang katawan! ang galeng nga eh.. nkakaadik ung texture.. ang ganda.. kaya lng mukhang ginahasa ung muka ng pusa... sayang.. galing dn pala kme sa nucleus.. parang timang lang ang mga naganap.. boring ung english. bigla tuloy nggames.. 2nd lng kme... c maica kc.. dinoble kc ung s nung occasionally, edi sana nanalo na kme hhehehe.. jok lng.. ok na ito.. wala na akong masabi.. makapost lang.. haha.. gusto ko ng coke float.. hahahaa.

1st tym

2006-03-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

haha, unang pose, hehe.. cno marunong ng html, patulong

annex

NUMB

Reviving my BLOG!! "Memos"

what you need to buy for Ralph on his birthday

i got tagged!

2nd batchrun of my wishlist!

1st Batchrun of RAG's wishlist

my answer to guiwos survey

MaSci is Gone

pre enlistment

course ko daw..

natag na naman!

IF YOU ARE A MASCIAN..

my schedule

UP Engineering enrollment.. (sigh)

dont pm me

i dream big!

got it from someone. true

the story goes

thank God!

eto mas bago. haha

me?

from stefen

tag tag dw!

waw

second best

weigh and balance

+positive+

....x_x

upd!!

+recharge;refuel+

wahehe

a really bad day..

friends. old and new.

birthday?

redo and undo

october fever

dengue outbreak

crabby patty

^RED ALGAE^

==angels and demos=

shet

finally.

weh... la nang energy

buhayin ang blog ko!

undisclosed.

ang lakas ng ulan....

naruto

walang title*.*

weee

1st tym

walang title.